Our emotions run high as the drive down the hill from Spring Valley to Lindberg Field draws to a close. The emotions are reminiscent of the departure for Copenhagen, a day that seems so near in memory today. In reality it was autumn 2003, ut it feels so much closer today. Now, as then, the farewell wishes are heartfelt, the emotions deep and broad, the tears are prolific. Then, I wondered if ever I might see her smiling face again. Our attraction and affection were new then; vital, desperate in the intensity of it all. Anguish overcame me as she deposited me upon the massive que at the Oakland Airport. Waves of emotion, affection, desire, loss, hope; all washed over me in moments. The crowds driving us apart, demanding our attention to the moment. My mind frozen in the potential loss of love, happiness and hope that had been found in this woman. My life, my dreams drawing me inextricably to the frozen Baltic, in the hope of discovering my soul, the dream of finally knowing the creative me, the hope of expressing the muse buried deep within me, yet never expressed. Architecture School in Copenhagen, Denmark drew me away from home, and hope, love and happiness, away frmo my sons and my family to a foreign land, with only a flicker of hope that I might at last face my muse. She found me there, grew in my spirit, allowed my heart to bloom again after the wilting it had so desperately suffered. The distance required us to take up the pen, for there was only a fledgling web then. We each had to learn anew how to write, how to clearly express emotions, deep and shallow, and the daily pineing of our hearts.
We parted ways in the pre-dawn, what feels like a hundred years ago, but it was only 5:30 AM yesterday, only thirty-eight hours ago. It is different this time, for she will follow soon. This time we have no doubts of reunification as we did then. this time, we are called by the powers that drive our life to a place of paradise. All aspects of this experience have conjoined in perfection to bring me here to Maui, and soon we shall unite again in the course of our life together. Soon we shall welcome our friends and family as they come here to share this magic, this karma, this ohana. Now we have internet, cell phones, facetime and skype. An entire century of communications development has occurred in a few years. Now anyone can see one another face to face anywhere on the planet. Leigh and I shall reap the joys of being distant yet present, and soon she too will be here.
If you are reading this, then you are my friend, my family, my aloha, my ohana, my joy. This step in our lives is as much about you as it is about us. We extend now, as we will each and every day, an invitation for you to come to Maui. Our home is always open to you. Please come.
Aloha nui loa. and a hui hou kakou
Gene
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